nothing to say

hey there :)

2010-10-04T18:20:00.002+08:00

this is weird, posting again after so long. i highly doubt anyone comes here anyway, but whatever. like i care anymore.

ok, so i've been in aussieland for 7 months now. settling down nicely so far. haha i've made many new, wonderful friends, and people who i know i could confine in. its a feeling :) i feel that god's blessing has really been upon me and my family during this time, and i thank God for it. He's blessed us with a supportive community, wonderful friends, and a good school :)

but i still miss singapore alotalot, i miss DI, Spohia, 304... everyone who appreciated me for who i am.

i feel that alot of people are facing hard times in their lives, that they are struggling to stay afloat amidst their homework and their own and other's expectations for them. and then i feel guilty, having a relatively stress-free live here. i want to say, people, friends, i love you! God will always be with you, like he was for me, and he always loves you, and he will be your strength when you are weak! i will always love you i'll pray for you! :)

that's it for now, ciao!

nostalgia

2010-04-11T19:39:00.002+08:00

too fast. way too fast.

its already sunday. and im leaving on wedesday.*sigh*

sometimes i really dont get life. true, things in life come and go, ppl come and go, even those you love the most... ppl who you can't bear to let go of. memories that we shared would be all that is left, things that you cling on to would eventually fade away.

i guess... evryone needs to say goodbye someday in thier life. i just hope that for all of us, my friends, Spohia, DI, everyone, that thiss will not be goodbye forever, but only for now, and see you soon!

i have no idea why i smile even wehn i am sad and depressed, why i laugh when i am supposed to be crying. sometimes i wonder how i am able to let go of everything io have here in Singapore. i guess its coz God's here with me, giving me comfort and taking away my tears.

as i look back at my past memories, i feel amazed at how everyone showed me so much love and concern when i am feeling down, in small little ways in my daily life.

it seems to me that i am only going back to the place that needs me, to the place that God has led me to. haha. evryone has to get out of thier comfort zone sooner or later. just that mine is sooner. :)

to the ppl whom i have met through out my 9~10 years in Singapore, to those whom i love, to those who love nme, and to those whom i considered 'just friends', i just want to say this: i will come back, one day. don't cry because i am gone, but smile that all this actually happened. that God brought me to know all you wonderful ppl. that we have meories to share, memories that i will always cherish.

moving is not easy on me, nor is it easy on my family. it is not easy on anyone, and it will never be easy. unless, of course, you are relly that cold-boolded. but to make it easier, don't think of it as me going away, but as me going out to impact the world, that i may truly become a Destiny Impacter!

don't worry for me, for God will always be with me. He will never leave us nor forsake us. He will always be there for us. i konw, coz i experianced it first. :)

as my time in Singapore draws to a close, i want to encourage everyone to continue to press on for God,and to glorify His name everyday!for i will be doing the same :)

no goodbye, but SEE YOU SOON! :)

don't cry because it is over, SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED. :D

smile, and i will smile back at you.

Australia, here i come.

2010-04-01T14:03:00.002+08:00

I have e-learing today. haha but thats not the point of this post.

for the first time in my life, i realized that time really does fly. like, FLY. i mean, look at the date right now. its already, what, 1st april? seems to me that only yesrerday i was still worring about my future. since then, 3 whole months have passed already. 3 months is a LONG time.

and now i sit here and ask myself: what have i actually done with my life so far?

i dont have much time left. we ALL dont have much tim left. in fact, we dont havr ANY time left at all. that means, we must start moving RIGHT NOW. i mean, come on, every day we live is a gift form God. yesterday will never keep coming.

3 months since i broke the news to u ppl. 3 months since i promised to myself, i will DEFINATELY be a part of DI's movement to have 100 souls planted by june.

boom, and rain starts falling. another of those sudden pours.

but what have i done so far? sure, i meant what i said back then, and i still mean it now.
as sudddenly as it had come, the rain stops.
but what have i been doing? when i look at my sister, even my classmates, i feel so bad within. that i lack the courage to go all out for God. taht i lack the will to do things for God, instead of the world. that i choose to keep my dignity above what God wants me to do.

there, i've said it all out. things that i never dared to admit, or to acknowledge.

whaat have i truly done with my life? now as i look back, i see many lost souls in need of a saviuor's love. and because i never really invested my time into saving souls, and getting girls who had come to DI before to come back, this time i lost all their numbers. and now i have no hope in contacting them again.

like i said, or rather typed, we never know what will happen tmr. i always thought i could do follow-ups the next day, later, whatever. then i lost my phone, and once again, the contacts werent the first thing i thought of.

im sorry, pearl. i let you, hongxia, eunice, and most of all, the whole of Sophia down. i always tried to hide everything away, to not let you know, and not to embarass myself. maybe you were able to see through the front i put up. maybe you saw this coming; maybe you didnt. i dont know how i can face you again, after you read this.

what should i do?

2010-01-15T19:39:00.002+08:00

aiyah i know very long since i post liao. but i usually never post alot also mah...

i realized i need to update a bit. heh.

two weeks since school started. oh and by the way, i lost count of the number of days till my birthday. and i lazy to count again. so obviously, i stopped.

aiyah i nothing to type about already lah. will come back when i have news.

byes for now!

My Life

2009-12-31T14:59:00.000+08:00

Will Never Be The Same Again.

2009-12-30T16:41:00.003+08:00

i don't know.
i really don't know.

ok i know you peeps out there don't know what im talking about, but bear with me for a while. ty.

these few days before 2009 ends, my feelings have been very muddled. confusing. strange. whatever, just mixed. its almost as if... i don't dare to face the future... face 2010. some of my closer friends (Spohia) would know what is happening in my life right now, but i don't want to talk about it. not now, at least.

i almost feel afraid of the future, afraid of what is going to happen. which is, unfortunately, going to happen in 2010. which is why i'm trying to cling onto every second the is left of 2009...even though i know that time, must always go on. i feel as if... i never want 2010 to come. my mentality is, if 2009 never ends, 2010 can never come.

which is basically correct, actually.

but i still can't really face the future, and face what is going to happen in the near future. its only a matter of time.

i know that i've kept saying"leave it to God, trust in him" and stuff like that. not that i don't believe it, it's just that...
i'll miss all of you. i really will.

this is the time of my life that i need all the support i can get...and i know there are peeps out there, who love me, care for me, and... i love you too, SOPHIA!

i know God is also here for me...Joshua 1:5 says: i will NEVER leave you nor forsake you.

thank you, Lord!

you know what, Sophia... i feel like hugging you guys and crying on your shoulders again...this Thursday...when we meet... ...

thank you for always being here for me...

Post X-Factor

2009-12-28T00:12:00.003+08:00

well... i guess its time to update already...

i know its such a long time since X-Factor camp ended... but i still miss it... the times we spent tgt, laughter, tears, joy, cheers, and so much more...

i never wanted to leave, never wanted it to end...

i enjoyed myself so much... it was the best camp of all time, God's presence was so strongly felt among us and in the camp..

yet so much things have happened. there was prayer meeting on thurs, Christmas service on fri, baptism on sat, then Sunday service...(though i nearly forgot abt Sunday service... met church ppl too much liao) then still have Yvonne's 18th birthday

and God was still able to work in my life...there's smth i want to share...

on thurs, i woke up late for prayer meeting (it was at 8am, for those who dont know). i was supposed to meet Sophia at 7am @ clementi for breakfast...and i woke up only at 6.18am. i managed to reach the bus stop at 6.30. actually could still be on time, but i kept worrying abt when the bus would come. worried all the way until 6.45, then i realised... God doesn't want us to worry abt anything! and we shouldn't worry cos everything is in His hands! and He is in control over everything! and guess what... the moment i stopped worrying, the bus came! HALEJLUYAH! Praise the Lord! some ppl may say its a coincidence, but i say, and i believe, that God caused it to happen and that he was with me all the time!

i learned smth very impt from this...

its the God doesn't want us to worry so much abt our future anymore! He wants us to just believe in Him, and to trust that He is always in control, and that nothing can ever go wrong!

whatever we may be facing right now, trust in God! for He is our good God, our mighty Saviour and Lord! our future is in His hands! He will always want the best for us; He will never give us what is second-best, but always the best! Praise God!

although we do not know what the future holds for us, right now what we have to do is just to believe God, trust in Him, and leave the rest up into His hands. even if smth that we don't like is going to happen (like school stuffs that interrupt an exciting camp), pray to God, believe in Him that He will change it, and have FAITH! have the child-like faith! no matter how late it is, God still answers prayers!

and this reminds me. rmb the recording i was supposed to have on the 21st? i prayed, and i never gave up, i kept believing! and guess what? it got cancelled! even though i got to know of it quite late, my prayers still got answered! and i was able to enjoy the camp to the full! Praise God! Thank You Jesus!

FOR THROUGH YOU, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

HALEJLUYAH!

never, ever stop believing. i hpoe this post can be a source of encouragement to you guys (and gals, of course!) out there, reading my blog. always rmb: with God, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!

P.S. i want to upload a vid leh... but dunno how.. help?

2009-12-15T14:02:00.002+08:00

it has been a looooong time since i last posted, i know.
my throat and head is (kinda) killing me. i was almost unable to sleep last night, was coughing so much. my parents went overseas yesterday. :(
anw, X-Factor camp is coming up! 3 more days only...
but i may have recording on 21 dec, which means i may have to leave on 20 dec. i hate leaving on the last day of camp cos it means missing out on ~50% of the fun D':
but i belive God can do everything! and i belive He can do all things! so i belive that if i call out to Him for help, He will answer me!
praise God! right now, i just have to keep beliving and keep crying out to God! leave everything into His hands...

oh look its a post!

2009-11-28T21:08:00.002+08:00

do me a favour and ignore the title kay?

just came back from china. help I'm dehydrated and my throat hurts like real badly. :( i'll just post a summarised version of my stay. seriously, nothing much happened.

nov 23

my day started at 3am. reached budget terminal at around 4-5? and had mac breakfast. yummy! :D our flight was at 6am. aft a (terrible) 6 hr flight we reached Bai Yun airport @ Guang Zhou. after (a quite expensive) lunch came a 1.5 hr domestic flight to Hu Nan. i spent most of my time sleeping on both flights, dun ask me why i was so tired. then after all that, was a 2 hr car ride to my uncle's place. terrible tirp man. i still needed to climb 5 stories up...urgh. my day finnally ended at ~8pm.

it was the longest day of my life.

nov 24/25

spent the whole day at my grandma's place for both days. watched a lot of tv. what else did i do? buy books. eat. sleep.

I TOLD YOU NOTHING MUCH HAPPENED.

nov 26

went to my cousin's place today (she's married, you see).pretty fun, cos i got to use the computer. :D i bought 2 cross-stich sets. we went window-shopping, ate ice cream and then went boating. hehe so fun right?

nov 27/28

last day! went to my grandma's house in the morning, then went back to my uncle's house to do last min paking.had a yummy dumpling dinner. our train was supposed to arrive at 8.30 pm but got delayed till 9. 11 hrs and a nice sleep later, we arrived at Bai Yun airport for the flight back home. (it was 5 hrs)
and then here i am!

ok...i guess thats all.
byes! :)

2009-10-20T09:05:00.002+08:00

YAHOO!(not yahoo.com, mind you)
YAY exams finally over. finally have time to do things ive not been able to do eg cross-stich. :) which also means i have time to blog again! :D i'd be getting my results on thurs and fri.
ooo ya, i recovered from my sore throat and running nose liao! heh heh so happy. i'll be enjoying my short freedom for as long as possible, or until the flury of holiday activities over takes me.

To-do list for holidays:
1)class chalet (before 13nov)
2)harp prac every mon and wed until last two wks
3)harp recording (14-18dec)
4)youth camp (18-21dec) not that i would count it as a task.

when you look at it on a calendar it really seems quite packed.
wait i think i hear some ppl screaming: wait till you see my schedule! yours is nowhere as packed as mine!

me: WHATEVER.

cough cough

2009-07-24T20:36:00.003+08:00

i've been coughing like crazy these past few days, esp. in air con rooms. like my classroom.
relax, my temp's being normal. no more than 37.0 c.

my throat's really sore. i cant speak too much or it'll get worse. irrritating. :(
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my life's too uneventful.

ouch again...

2009-07-04T08:36:00.002+08:00

yesterday i fell down on the way to school.
by the itme i realized it was bleeding the bloood had stained my skirt.
and so this marked my first trip to the sick bay. the thing hurt llike crazy esp. when going up the staris. so got a lift pass. yay! :)

right now the thing is still not healed althougt it has stopped bleeding. the thing is it is just oozing with plasma and my sis refuses to lend me her gauze saying it will stick (hello i used gauze in school!) and no more plasters big enough to cover the whole wound. so basically my wound has absolutely no protection. how bad can it get??!

i srlsy dunno what to do abt it le. *sighs*

actually compared to the finger incident this is much better :)

see you!! =)

church camp!!!!

2009-06-22T11:44:00.004+08:00

came back from camp on 19/6/09.
one word to describe it: FUN!!!
=D

1st day

reached JE MRT @ around 8.40am.
completed all necessary procedures(filling up travel from etc.)
bus was supposed to reach at 9am but was late. i forgot by how long.

i can say that the funniest thing that happened to me on the way there was that when i fell asleep the whole bus was noisy. by the time i woke up1 hr later everyone was sleeping.

reached around 3pm, checked in, had dinner, ice breakers then sleep. z...z...z...

the stupidest thing that happened at the hotel was that the staff got all rooms mixed up. our room (me,my sis, gladys) was supposed to have one extra bed but no, there was none. so gladys ended up moving to mao's and janice's room which had an extra bed when it was not supposed to. -.-

2nd day

overslept and was late for breakfast.
had 5 hrs of free time...went shopping to midvalley! =) long time never shop liao...
wanted to buy a cross stitch set but couldn't find the appropriate shop...
there was a midnight party but i was sleepy so went back to sleep... z...z...z...

3rd day

woke up on time.

another shopping trip to alamander.as usual, never buy anything cos of the same reason.(see above)
there was another midnight 'party' just to finish all the food left over from the night before.
but then scarlet was asleep so it was not much fun after all...
slept at around 2am.

4th day

woke up at 10.40am. totally slept through breakfast. if not for my mum i bet we would have slept till maybe 11/12.
check out was at 11 am. lunch then home!

on the way back almost everyone slept once on the bus (including me).
not until we passed the s'pore border did everyone wake up (permanently).
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ok that was more or less what happened during church camp. may not seem fun here, but it sure was! i just lazy to type out all details.
as always everything is easier to understand if you were there...its not my fault if you ppl out there do not understand.

TGIF

2009-06-01T01:04:00.003+08:00

yay yay yay! :D
excuse me for me ramdomness but i am VERY HAPPY!!!!
TGIF was on sat, 30 may.

during the station games my team was against pearl's team for half the time.literally.

3/6=1/2=half

MY GROUP WON TOP PRIZE FOR STATION GAMRS!!!!
1st 1st 1st!!!!

hehe so happy :D
won 2 movie vouchers each. :)
giving them to none other than my sister. her birthday's coming up, planning to bring her for movie treat. (what a thoughtful sister! lol)

and the reason im up so late is cos i cant sleep (which is quite obvious)

ouch...

2009-05-21T17:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday morning as i was leaving for school my fingers got squashed by the front door.
basically aft i had stepped out of the house, i put my hand out for support. accidentally put too far in, door closed automatically, *SCREAMS*
i almost fainted from the pain, ok?!

my middle finger and 4th finger of my left hand got hurt.
they were bruised, bleeding, swollen.
ok fine it(4th) stopped bleeding a long time ago and it(3rd) wasn't really swollen anymore when i woke up.
naturally it would still be painful.

my father says it would take a few days to heal. till then i can only bear with it.

at least my index finger and thumb never get squashed.

2009-05-14T17:33:00.002+08:00

today my com took a long time to boot up.
so i put my head on the table and zonked out.
which means i fell asleep.

then i got woken up by my bro who just returned home.

i wonder about the look on my mum's face if she caught me sleeping in front of the com.

*CRASH!*(sound of glass hitting the floor)
someone broke something downstairs.

o.O

2009-05-07T21:39:00.005+08:00

today, saw sometinhg on glady's blog.

i was like, look at name(wu jun hua SIMON), look at pic, look at name again.
then NONONO IT COULDN'T BE.
mr simon ng was my pri school band conductor, now he's a singer.
O.o
wujunhuasimon.com
shocking.

anyway i like to thank all those who whished me happy birthday, weather in person, via sms or facebook; early,on time or belated.
cos my birthday was not 'well planned' and everyone has exams, tests, whatever.
thanks again for taking time out to wish me 'happy birhtday'!=D
muacks :)

SYF

2009-04-28T22:41:00.003+08:00

today i went to Republic Poly for SYF.
carried harp till arm pain...until cannot lift foreearm above elbow.
its better now.

results: pending!(a term agreed by all harpists)
the results of an appeal

ok original was _____

so im still not telling.
i hope the appeal would have some effect.
everyone was blaming the judges for being biased.
come to me if you want to know the full story cos im lazy to type it out here.

i thought can miss CEP but CEP teacher never come...so end up missing two free periods.
-.-

byes for now! =D

resurrection sunday

2009-04-12T19:42:00.000+08:00

happy resurrection sunday everyone!
the day our saviour rose from the grave, so we are saved!
woohoo!!!!=D

yesterday was silent angles weekend.
this year we only watched parts of the movie passion of the christ
unlike last year we watched the whole thing.

but it was good all the same. =D

my mum was angry cos we waited for (the guys)too long before going dinner.
so she say "next time dun go for dinner aft youth! wait too long, get back too late!"
why are guys always so slow? i can tell from past experiances waiting for them aft youth.

ok i guess thats all. looks like a summary to me, don't u think?

actually it is, a summary of today & yesterday.

cherios!

i apologise beforehand for any offended guys out there!

e-learnning

2009-04-09T11:56:00.000+08:00

ok so todays e-learning day.
and i'm super duper irritated by that asknlearn web.

i mean, it takes so long load, and i never got past ist qns of both bio and chinese quizes.
like, aft 1st qns screen went blank.

and a few times i cannot even view the website.

...

ok i finally got back to the chinese quiz. finally continuing with it.

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completed! :D

at least ace learning(for math) is gonna be better( i think.)

break...till one.

byes!!!! =D

2009-04-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

i realized my fornt size was too small.

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my class room is too cold for my liking.
for those who dun noe(which accounts for most ppl out there), my classroom is air-conditioned.
22 deg, fan on FULL BLAST, and im sittingRIGHT IN ITS PATH.

we change seats every one mth.
one more day to go.

cold.

hi

2009-03-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

ok...first time blogging.

stop gasping.

thankyou.

im kinda exited, but this is for now.

cherios!
note:it would be pictureless, cos i cant upload pics from my hp.